Shine your brightest light

“To shine your brightest light is to be who you truly are.”  ― Roy T. Bennett

When I was a child, I wanted to be a missionary. This desire had nothing to do with spreading the Gospel and everything to do with “helping people.” I imagined going to the Amazon jungle and…helping. I honestly had no idea what missionaries did. But, thanks to our minister’s sermons, I believed that what they did was good and righteous.

When I was 16,  I wanted to become a missionary nurse. By that point, I had a better understanding of what missionaries did and I dreamed of providing medical and spiritual care to Amazonian tribes. (The possibility of being assigned somewhere other than the Amazon never occurred to me.) I held fast to this aspiration until one of my older church friends who was a nurse sneaked me into a conference for missionary nurses at Bible camp. The opening session featured a slide show illustrating a surgical technique geared towards primitive field conditions. I promptly clamped my eyes shut and decided that I was not cut out to be a nurse.

Like many people, somewhere along the way I stopped trying to pick a career and was simply swept along from one job to the next. I worked in retail, publishing and Information Technology (IT). From time to time, I would consider obtaining an advanced degree in one of the “helping professions,” but I never mustered the energy to do so.

I wish that I could say that there was an “aha!” moment when I realized that I could be of service to others regardless of my job title, but there was not. Rather, there was a gradual awakening, a series of little epiphanies.

If I had really been paying attention, the first epiphany would have been enough to make me do a 180. But I often need to have the message driven home multiple times in a variety of ways before I “get it.”

I was on jury duty in Manhattan. The attendant for the women’s room was a young West Indian woman. She greeted everyone with a “good morning” or “good afternoon” and a blinding smile as they entered her domain and said “good day” when they left. The bathroom itself was sparkling clean, cheery pictures from magazines were taped on the walls and there were even small vases with fake flowers on the windowsill.

The woman was a public employee; she was not soliciting tips. She had created a pleasant environment and was friendly to the women who entered within because that’s who she was: someone who wanted to be of service. The first time that I visited that bathroom, I was a bit taken aback by the decor and by her behavior since they were both so out of the norm for New York. But as I watched jurors and lawyers leave transformed with a “goodbye” on their lips and big smiles that reached their eyes, I realized that the attendant was doing what I was not: giving of herself in a job that was decidedly not one of the helping professions.

My next lessons on being of service came from the 12-step rooms of recovery, which stress that you can’t keep your recovery unless you “give it away.” Giving it away — “doing service” — encompasses anything that spreads and supports the message of recovery: sponsoring newcomers, sharing at a meeting, leading a meeting, putting chairs away, making phone calls to other members, etc. At first, I practiced doing service in the 12-step rooms. Then I learned from my sponsor and other members that I needed to do service outside of the rooms in the “real world” as well.

I remember the first time that I was consciously “of service” at work. One of the people I supervised came into my cubicle. My initial response was annoyance. Couldn’t he see that I was busy? Then I had the clear thought, “This may be the most important thing that you do all day.” I invited him to sit down and quickly learned that his wife had a chronic illness. He just needed to talk to someone and he had chosen me.

In the following years, I was privileged to have many more “This may be the most important thing you do all day” moments. They cost me nothing more than a few moments of my time and some compassion and they always left me feeling as if I had made my world a little better.

Service at work grew to include being more mindful of how I spoke to people. If I was leading a conference call, I went out of my way to welcome all attendees and to ensure that everyone had a chance to express their opinion. If there was dissension, on calls or among my teams, I played the role of peacemaker. I empowered the people I supervised by creating training and opportunities to help them to grow within — and eventually beyond — their roles.

When my job was downsized in April 2016, I was surprised to receive a gift from my old team. After all, I hadn’t worked with any of them directly for several years. The card read:

Please accept this small token of our appreciation for everything you have done for each and every one of us. We just want to say thank you and we will miss you.

I believe that our bond stemmed directly from my conscious decision to be of service in a job that was most definitely not a helping profession. Being of service created a positive, supportive culture within our team. And in the end, they were of service to me by letting me know that I had made a difference.

Please share how are you are of service in your job and your life.

15 thoughts on “Shine your brightest light

  1. ReadingRenee

    Thanks for this post.

    It really struck a chord with me as I always want to go into the helping professions but as yet find myself with menial jobs and no degree. I often lament about feeling unfulfilled and how I am not making a difference at my job. However, at my menial job I often find myself listening carefully and compassionately to my co workers as they share personal tribulations with me, mediating conflicts, and somehow getting along with everyone in a rather emotionally volatile environment. I also am always positive and treat everyone with respect. So, maybe I am helping people and making a difference, just not in a way that I would expect to.

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    1. Judie Sigdel

      You’re very welcome, ReadingRenee. I’m glad that it resonated with you. It sounds to me that you are shining your brightest light everywhere you go. Thank you for sharing your experience.

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  2. I’ve spent so much of my life trying to be what everyone else needs me to be. But a pastor/counselor friend of mine has finally made me see that I am who God intended me to be all along, and that those desires I first had — like yours to serve people — are righteous. And when we get to the point where we realize and believe that, we will have come full circle, come home. There’s one quote by George Eliot that I have always claimed as my own: What do we live for if not to make life less difficult for each other? I think that’s exactly what happens when you sit with someone in your cubicle and listen. 🙂 Terrific post, Judie.

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  4. I came up with this reminder for myself that I have written on a post it note in my bathroom. This note is to remind me when I feel out of sorts how to get back on track. It says, “whenever I am in service to others I know exactly who I am.” If I am confused or down all I need to do get in action to serve someone else. Love is an action and when I take authentic action to serve others I regain my footing in life. Thank you for the opportunity to share and for your post.

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    1. Judie Sigdel

      Thank you for sharing that, Bernadette! That’s an excellent example of how the small things — basic niceties — can make a world of difference. ❤


  5. When my cousin, Cindy, died at 33, we all received a surprise at her funeral. As people arose to speak a few words about her, every single one of them said that in interactions with her, she made them feel like the most important person in the world, with the most important things to say. Not everyone used the same words, of course, but it became quickly obvious that to those of us who thought WE were closest to her, that was in fact, just the way she treated everyone.
    Like they deserved that consideration and time with her.
    I have tried to emulate that quality since and I am one of “those” that hears the most amazing stories come out of random encounters with strangers. My sons tell me I just have that energy that invites storytelling or secrets.
    Loved your post!

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    1. Judie Sigdel

      Thank you for the lovely compliment, Shannon. And thank you for sharing your story about Cindy. It sounds as if she was a very special person. What a legacy she left behind: you emulating her generosity of spirit. And you can bet that your sons are learning it from you. ❤

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  6. ‘This could be the most important thing you do all day’ … such a beautiful perspective on giving of ourselves to others, regardless of how we feel in the moment.

    I really like this, and hope I can retain it!

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